My Spiritual Awakening

In this article I will explain my spiritual awakening I had when I was just 17 years old. At the time I was very much into philosophy, although I didn’t study it at A Level, I had quotes on my wall of famous philosophers quotes, my favourite being Socrates “True knowledge exists in knowing that you know nothing”. To be honest, I think my interest in philosophy is what led me to my spiritual awakening.

I don’t know in which order these things really happened, but I will recount some experiences I had. The first perhaps spiritual experience I had was at 17 and while dozing off, a guide told me something, but I shot back “Who are you to say this?” Or something like that and my guide said “He’s right!”, I then see the complete chain of guides that each guide is being guided by a more higher guide and its revealed to me that they are all just wearing a mask and its actually me under that mask. Needless to say, this really changed me at the time.

On top of this experience, I recently was philosophising on this point and this idea that “You can’t control the past, because its in the past and you can’t control the future because its the future, the only thing you can control is the present”, at the time I really focussed on living in the present and was a lot more conscious at the time. This then eventually resulted in an experience I described as “being self aware of being self aware, infiniity”. I believe it was what Jesus described as “the I AM”. This really impacted me at the time and it was like I was using a higher voice within me to think my thoughts and the voice in my head had changed to a louder voice. Its hard to overstate the impact this had.

However, initial spiritual awakenings can cause a lot of mental turbulence. This caused me to experience a depression at the time, but also caused a mental breakdown of a sort and I will say my imagination really played tricks on me during this period and that only exacerbated the issue. I quickly entered the world of mental health and the rest is history.

This isn’t to say the spiritual awakening was bad in any way, I quickly got better, but I feel that going to a mental health hospital only made me worse. I feel that going through mental health has benefitted me a lot and made me a lot wiser as a person with being involved in the mental health world.

But yeah, everyone will awaken spiritually at some point and each case is different.

I started to meditate at the age of 17 and took up prayer at the age of 20, I go through times when I meditate more than I pray or pray more than I meditate.

I also read my first perhaps spiritual book at 17 called “The Stairway To Freedom”, although I didn’t read it all at the time, I did start trying to read it.

You can read the article on the spiritual books I have read in my lifetime, I am currently 23 years of age. Books I have read on my spiritual journey